Poem by Thomas Merton

Echoes so much of my heart and journey in this season :

My Lord God
I have no idea where I am going
I do not see the road ahead of me
I cannot know for certain
Nor do I really know myself,
and the fact I think
that I am following Your will
does not mean that I am actually doing so

But I believe that the desire to please You
does in fact please You.
And I hope that I have that desire
in all that I am doing.
I hope that I will never do anything
apart from that desire.
And I know that if I do this
You will lead me by the right road
though I may know nothing about it.

Therefore will I trust You always
though I may seem to be lost
and in the shadow of death
I will not fear, for You are with me
and will never leave me
to face my perils alone.

M burning midnight oil to work on a scrapbook for our pastor ... pastor's appreciation day is 1 week away .... so this is my project ... and as I think of her .. this MYF top 10 came to mind ... and with it .... sweet memories ..... I remember singing our hearts out every camp and getting emo during camp ... especially on the last day ... during USM days ... I also had a Valentine memory of it .... ahem! ... :) Tried You Tube looking for the song .. cant find it ... guess its too old .. but thank God I can still find the lyrics .... so I better paste it here ... just in case .... thank God for all the people He placed in my path to journey with me ....

Every time I think of you, my heart is filled with joy

I thank God for all that you’ve meant to me

You have helped me serve the Lord in many, many ways

We are partners for eternity.

God is using you to give His Gospel to this land

Your whole life is serving Him in someway

And I’m sure He’ll carry on His work will not be done

Until Jesus comes again some day

Chorus

I’m thankful for your fellowship

Thankful for your partnership

Thankful for the love we share in Jesus Christ

I’m thankful for the joy we’ve known

Thankful for the way you’ve grown

I thank God each time I think of you

You are always in my heart it’s right for you to know

I love you because of Jesus’ love

I am praying everyday your love will grow and grow

Guided by His wisdom from above

As you choose to do His will He’ll cleanse you from all sin

You will face His judgment without shame

Then when Jesus comes again your life will be fulfilled

Giving praise and glory to God’s name

Chorus

(Phil. 1 : 3-5)

Susu Dilanggar Storm

It was a busy Sunday when I was asked to help CL babysit YY ... so off I went to send YY for her piano class when I noticed that the car in from of me stopped. I stopped right behind of the car and wonder if it wanted to turn to the house on the right but to my horror the car reversed right into Susu!!! I was just to stunned to do anything ... man! what a mess .. I got down and saw the mess of the front of Susu ... it was surprising that my heart did not break when I saw it ... it was quite messy .... after all the car that ramp into us was a Storm ... what to expect ... HH asked if my car was ramp over by a lorry when he saw my car later that night ....

My feelings was ... o man!! sian ... sian ... the mess of going through the process ... police station ... looking for good reliable workshop ... the claims ... adjusters ... etc

But God was very gracious to give me a very supportive team ... PK and TT came immediately when I called them. Since TT is not familiar with MYVi quotes .. he called XC and SM to come .. yes .. their estimate is quite accurate ... almost similar to what the mechanic friend of the Storm owner.

By God's grace the lady who ramp into my car agreed to make the police report with the true story ... after all, she can turn the story around to say that it was my car that ramp into hers as the front of my car was dented and there was totally not a scratch on her Storm.

By God's grace also I've got the idea that the police report is just for hold while the lady makes arrangement to pay me cash ... then her insurance will not be effected ....

Now I am waiting for her to pay me ... should be in these few days .....

I thank God that when I choose to give thanks and praise Him ... things start to look better -- yes .... Romans 8:28 .... we made friends .. the lady and I .. JY prayed for her 2x .. WOW ... praying for our "cousin" in public .... she accepted the prayers ...

To God be the glory ... may we see her one day in His Kingdom .... the seed is indeed sown ... now to wait for it to bear fruit ... which is the work of the HS

Awaken Me by Misty Edwards

Another song that has come so powerfully to me today .. working in this vineyard can be tiring and weary to the soul ... especially when the business of activities just crawl in ... making me neglect what is CORE source to keep me going in this vineyard .... and when weary .... dullness, boredom and wondering spirit takes over the soul ....

This many times .... this speaks truth to many of our heart and o how we need god in His abundant love to put His hand upon my heart .... let me know that I are alive ... let me feel my heart beat beating in rhythm with His .... awaken me ... awaken my spirit ... awaken my soul once again ....

___________________

Forgive me for neglecting Your heart,
Forgive me for neglecting mine.
Forgive me for my busy life,
Forgive me for wasting time,

For I'm dark from working in the vineyard,
but my heart I have forgotten

Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
Put Your hand upon my heart
I want to feel

Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
Let me know that I'm alive
I want to feel (You)

Take away the dullness
Take away a proneness to boredom
Take away my wandering spirit
And take this wild soul

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Come and hold me like you do

Fascinate me
Captivate me
Capture this imagination
Capture my affections, too

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Come and capture my imagination

Fascinate
Captivate
God, Capture my affections, too

I want You to awaken me
Came awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me
Awaken me

Empower Me

This song came to mind suddenly .... and i tried to look for the song in you tube ... cant find a good version of it .... ai ... LOVE this song like mad and used to sing this song crazy in MYF days .... song really empowered me ...

NOBODY KNOWS HOW WEAK I AM, BETTER THAN YOU;

NOBODY SEES ALL OF MY NEEDS, BETTER THAN YOU.

AND NOBODY HAS THE POWER TO CHANGE ME,

FROM WHAT I WAS BORN TO BE.

JESUS BE STRONG IN MY WEAKNESS, EMPOWER ME!

Chorus 1

EMPOWER ME, LIKE A RUSHING RIVER FLOWING TO THE SEA.

LORD, SEND YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FLOWING NOW THROUGH ME.

TILL I’M LIVING AS YOUR CHILD,

VICTORIOUS AND FREE, SEND THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE,

EMPOWER ME.

NOBODY’S EYES SEE THROUGH MY SOUL,

BETTER THAN YOURS;

NOBODY’S LOVE CAN MAKE ME WHOLE,

NO ONE BUT YOURS.

AND NOBODY HAS THE POWER TO LIFT ME,

TO REACH FOR ETERNITY.

JESUS BREAK THROUGH ALL MY DEFENCES, EMPOWER ME.

Chorus 2

EMPOWER ME, LIKE A RUSHING RIVER FLOWING TO THE SEA.

LORD, SEND YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FLOWING NOW THROUGH ME.

TILL I’M LIVING AS YOUR CHILD,

VICTORIOUS AND FREE, SEND THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE,

EMPOWER ME. EMPOWER ME…

Chorus 3

EMPOWER ME, LIKE A RUSHING RIVER FLOWING TO THE SEA.

LORD, SEND YOUR HOLY SPIRIT FLOWING NOW THROUGH ME.

TILL I’M LIVING AS YOUR CHILD,

SEND THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE, EMPOWER, EMPOWER ME.

Coda:

SEND YOUR LOVE,

AND LORD

EMPOWER ME.

VICTORIOUS AND FREE, SEND THE POWER OF YOUR LOVE,

EMPOWER ME.