"Clinically OK"

I visited Ah Ming Clinic in Rail Mall yesterday evening cos I was feeling dizzy past 2 days -- the world seem to be spinning and I seemed to be floating around ... NO ... I am not drunk ..:0 Told the dr how I felt ... after checking my eyes, ears .... he certified that I am clinically OK ... there is nothing wrong with me clinically ... but harlo ... I still feel dizzy ... how do you explain that .... something is wrong with me and causing me to feel like this ..and I would like to find out ... (that why I go see the doc, right) ... I asked the dr what medication he can give me ... he said .. med for dizziness ... in my heart ... that's what I have taking in my room past 2 days right ... adui ... anyway I decided to agree to a blood test to see if any of my pallet is low or .. whatever ... it may explain the condition that I am experiencing ... at the end of the visit I paid $59 (!!!! a lot of $$$ for a student to pay) for blood test (which the result will be out in the next few days), a bottle of gastric liquid (cos I told him that my tummy feels bloated), anti-gastric pill and pills for dizziness.

When I come back, I still feel the same ... then Dr Quack Jeng came and visited me ... she korok me ... m red all over .. I felt better and she said "Ing!!!! U wasted $59 for angin??!!!" hahahha ... how I know this Javanese Dr Quack is really good ...hehhehe...

Then, when I told the Vietnamese Dr what happen ... he said "I told you so .. but you don't believe me.... and now you waste $59!" Well, he did not tell me that I am clinically OK ... except that "I don't have any pills for you this time.... you just go back and sleep for 5 days and you'll be OK!!" See la the reply I get... pengsan! I was wondering if he said this cos I warned him to give me the proper prescription cos the last time I saw him for milk rash at the corner of my mouth, the V Dr gave me cream for it and say that i will get well after I apply it -- well ... after 3 days ... I had the most kissable lips in college!!! LOL .... (off cos I know its not his fault but choose not to tell him that time .... hehehhe ....it was the explosion of kimchi-coffee milk-wasabi nuts in me while watching Baihu series!!!)

2 things come to my mind as I ponder over this little episode of my life :
1) What are the symptoms that a relationship is sick ... and needs CVR before one finally walks out or signs the divorce papers.

Today, at 3pm, my friend finally will walk to her lawyer's office to sign join petition for divorce and petition for the right for her 2 kids after 15 years of marriage. The marriage hit rocks-bottom 4 years ago and she had been hanging on to it till finally she threw in the white towel, to agree with the hub for a divorce.

2 days ago, I heard news of yet another marriage on the rocks ...

Yes, I do have to agree with Felix that the grass is always greener on the other side .. those not married is desperately wanting to get married and those married wants to get out ....

Question that looms over my mind past few days is : what does it really takes to make a relationship work? Why don't people be as responsible and as eager as they were on their wedding day and courtship time to sit down and really talk, find out what is the problem openly and work towards restoring the sick area of the relationship before one wakes up one day and realise the relationship is already at terminal stage. Lord have mercy on all those who are going through relationships that are sick .... sick physically, emotionally, physically .. Lord have mercy on them and their families ....

The grass is not greener on the other side .... its is our pasture that needs to be tended, cared,loved, watered .... pruned .. so that our pasture looks greener than the other side .... and this takes lots of energy, effort, time and sacrifice .... May God bless your hard labor in your pasture ....

2) Are we aware of the warning signs that something is not right with our relationship with God?
Are we aware of the warning signs that something is wrong with our relationship with God and if we seem the warning signs, what do we do with it?

Like our physical health, our spiritual health when sick also will have symptoms of sickness like arrogance, unteachable spirit, complaining, nagging .... victim mentality, no meaning in life, emptiness in heart, restlessness, roaming spirit, driven ... the list goes on .... Its very easy of us to live in denial or just ignore the warning signs ... but ... before the truth surfaces, let's face and deal with the truth ...

I pray that we will be sensitive to take stock of our spiritual life, our emotions, our relationships .... our life, reflect, review before our Maker and allow Him to come into our spirit, our emotions, our relationships to heal, to mend, to discipline ... to restore ..... remember, at the end of our journey, we all face the same door... the door of eternal life or eternal death .... our choice will determine which path we will take after that door .... Our Maker is waiting to lead us to His Door .... won't you let His lead you and guide ... to His pastures ... and allow Him to heal, restore, mend our tangled lives, renew our tangled mind-sets and fill us afresh with His love, peace and joy ..... no matter what situation you are in right now .... He sure loves you and cares for you .... He is our Healer :0