Tuesday, May 4, 2010

Today ...

Today, I went to visit Auntie in hospital again. It is really heart breaking to see her laying in the hospital bed, weak, in pain and suffering .... literally a sack of bones .... It is devastating to see body, the temple of the Holy Spirit ... this Temple whose best position is always in intercessory worship .. she would faithfully wakes up at 430-530 to worship her God and to seek His face for 2-3 hours a day ....


Today Auntie is weaker compared to Sunday when I saw her. On Sunday, she asked me : Ing, as representing my eldest daughter, what do I have to say to her situation .... what can I say ... in the face of the torment of sickness? What can I say...


Today, when I see Auntie, the affirmation and confirmation came again that our life here is but temporal .... all of us will need to face our Maker one day .. suffering and pain is real - no one is exempted from it .... all of us need to enter and pass through the final door -- the door of death .... the challenge is ... do you know who is waiting for you on the other side of the door and from the door, where is will you be going to?


Today, Auntie grab my hand, holding it tight .. I knew that she wanted me to pray for her .... more than pray for her .. if I could, help her express her desire to worship God and bring her petition to the Throne Room. I was certain that Auntie's heart was longing to be in the courts of God's house ...... "Better is one day in your courts than a thousand elsewhere; I would rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God than dwell in the tents of the wicked (Ps 84:10)".


I held her hand .. and prayed in the Spirit with her for 30 minutes ..... from the grip of her hands ... she indeed longs to once again to life up her hands towards heaven to worship her Maker .... and to on her knees to pray.


I think that the challenge for many of us is the fact that when it is time for us to do the great cross over, we may not be willing to do so ... though in we know in our head and heart that Heaven-bound is definitely a better place ... why? Allow me to suggest some reasons ...


1) We take too much pleasure in our temporal life here that we have placed our roots too deep in this place. We have become too complacent that we do not want to move ..... we love our lifestyle here ... we love the people here ... we love the familiarity of the place ....We forget that this place is temporal and we are just strangers here ... our citizenship is in heaven and we need to go home some day.


2) We are afraid of the unknown .. the fear of not knowing what to expect on the other side of the door ... the fear of having to do this great cross over alone .. This is where if we have been walking closely to Jesus and holding His hands in our journey now ... then His hands will not be a stranger's hand as He journeys with us as we cross over to the other door.


3) The worry of leaving our love ones behind and our unwillingness to part with them. I am sure that we do have people that we love that we are not willing to part with -- our spouses, children, parents, friends .... vice versa ... they may not be willing to say farewell to us.


Today ... if death knocks at your door --- will you be ready to face your Maker? How ready are you to leave all you have behind -- your love ones, your friends, your lifestyle and all that you have pour your entire life to build .... your identity ....


Today ... are you living a life that will guarantee your entry to His Courts ... are you living truly as a citizen of Heaven?


We know that "those who practice magic arts, the sexually immoral, the murderers, the idolaters and everyone who loves and practices falsehood (Rev 22:15b) are the ones that stand outside of the door.


"Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God" (1 Cor 6:9-10)


I pray that we will live a life that anticipates our departure any moment ready to face our Maker and the Judgment throne .... life is indeed fragile and precious ....

1 comment:

SM Ting said...

thanks for the sharing. So sad ... yet I can't find in me to be patient with ma. She just gets into my nerves many times. Sigh. Think we need a break from each other again. Absence makes the heart fonder.